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I always have the best intentions. I have a list, lots of them, and I plan to blog about projects and post pics. Unfortunately, I’m a slacker.

I fail to estimate the right amount of time each project will take me, and when it’s not completed when I thought, I don’t post about my progress. I guess I’m trying to hide my slacker tendencies. I don’t particularly like to fail and I most certainly do not like others to know about such failures!

So I decided to myself out there to all of you. I AM A SLACKER! I FAIL! ALOT!

Is it a reason to give up, NO.

My resolutions for 2013 have all come up short. I keep working towards them, but I really haven’t made much progress with any of them. I made it all of 3 weeks before I picked up smoking again. I have lost zero pounds and truthfully, I think I might have gained a few.

I did get the loft beds built for the boys and their rooms cleaned up. It is a struggle to have them keep them clean but I continue reminding them of the importance. I did take pics but they are still on the camera.

Their bedrooms puked everything they didn’t want back in their rooms into my living room, so it is now storage central. Packed to the brim with boxes, books and movies. I look at it everyday, stare at it really and think…where am I supposed to start?

And now the weather is finally breaking and I don’t even want to be in the house. The projects outside are calling me and I feel guilty leaving behind a beaten, battered and dirty house.

It’s a constant struggle to keep up with the laundry, the dishes, the vacuuming all while working full time (not that this is news). I add all of these projects to my lists knowing there is not enough time in the day to get everything done. And then I realize that there is, that I am simply a slacker. And that a pity party is not going to get it done either. I scatter my time, a little on this project, a little on that one. Hoping that one day, they will be completed. I think about this while I sit in the chair, looking at my home, T.V blaring some show I’m not even interested in watching.

The truth is………..I’m a slacker.

But today, today it changes!

It’s okay to be a slacker, don’t feel bad about it. I don’t. But I want to be a better me, so I am making chages, taking steps and moving forward!

Seeing as most of my resolutions are falling behind, I’ve been looking in webland to try and find some helpful tips and tricks to make my dream of a better me a reality. sobomama.worpress.com has a ton of ideas for repurposing in her journey to cheaptitude. (Also, she’s my bestest friend!) Her ideas are great, and I LOVE them, I want to do them…..but they don’t always fit into my lifestyle or my space. 😦 Storage space in my home is little to none, no hall closet, no pantry and so on. But her post about organizing a freezer has changed my life! If you get irritated because items in your freezer are lost and ruined in the chaos, check it out! WOW!

Pinterest is an addiction a great place for ideas too. I’ve shared a couple of the decorating ideas I’ve found and my version of them. I love them because they make decorating look neat and tidy, setting the mood for the rest of the house. But my last adventure got shot down by mechanic man. He said this looked like a 1950’s design.

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Why did I take him shopping with me again? What I ended up with was a stainless steel looking dry erase board. No frames, no color. No pretty printable menu planner for the main attraction. Very boring weekend craft project. So borning in fact, that I didn’t even attempt to do it. 😦

I have a feeling though, that I will end up with a version of what I envisioned for the fridge by the end of this weekend. I just won’t take him with me to pick up the frames.

With that I have decided to focus on a couple of my resolutions at a time. Based on the last month, there are just too many changes to make all at once. I thought that baby steps would work, but apparently my baby steps are still too large. So here is my new plan.

1. Focus on creating a well running home. Making sure that everything has a place and it is in it when not in use. Creating and utilizing a launch pad for mornings (created it, only to have it get piled with stuff because no one took those items to their homes), and getting the kids into a pattern of behavior that will decrease morning anxiety.

2. Focus on creating a well running business. Having my husband retrained adjust his paper work habits to decrease my paper work anxiety. This will decrease the amount of time I spend on it all year, allowing me a fraction of time for myself.

I think that working on those 2 right now will free up time allowing me the freedom to work out and lose those nasty 40 lbs. I would really like to make progress towards that before I see my doctor in May! I hate getting scolded.

I will post pics of the launch pad tomorrow. I am implementing it tonight! 2013 – You will not discourage me!

Yesterday was my birthday. Mechanic man planned nothing. It is just another day I suppose. It’s just that I try to make sure that everyone’s birthday is special in my house and I got nothing. I’ve always said that it’s not a birthday without balloons. They did tell me happy birthday and constantly reminded me that it was my birthday, and that I should decide what to do.

There are a few things I don’t think the birthday person should ever have to do.

1. They should never have to decide what to do for their birthday the day of. If it was your plan to take me out, but wanted me to choose the place, fine. But I should be informed of this a few days prior to my birthday. It lets me know that you’ve actually thought about it.

2. I don’t think that the birthday person should ever have to make their own cake. EVER!

Although I did not make my cake, I think they were hinting towards it all day. (I do make a mean birthday cake!) And my friends and my sisters did not forget me.

But I got no card, no cake, no balloons, nothing. This doesn’t happen every year, and honestly I’m not going around for months ahead of time reminding everyone either. I really didn’t expect much, but I thought I would get at the very least….a card. It made me feel like the only people who wanted to celebrate my birth were my parents, and they are all gone. So I cried on my birthday.

Will I say anything to mechanic man? Probably not. They only thing I said is when he asked me for the 100th time…”What do you want to do today?” I replied, “Exactly what you planned for me, nothing.”

I’m getting older and the excitement for being another year older is fading anyway. Will I not try so hard for everyone else, no. I will continue making their day as special as I can because I love them and that’s what I do.

2013 Resolution update:
1. Did not start exercising like I should have.
2. Repeated snow days has given the boys cabin fever and I am unsure of how to spend time with them when they
are trying to kill each other.
3. We are eating at home more….obviously, since we didn’t even go out for my birthday.
4. 2012 paperwork is nearly ready for the tax accountant.
5. Ebay store has stalled out, the book is soooooo boring!
6. I’m down to 5-7 cigs a day instead of 10-15.
7. The garden is on hold until spring.
8. Collecting supplies for the refrigerator project, expected completion is this weekend.
9. I am still successfully deflecting drama from outside sources.

Oh, and we are currently on the hunt for a kitten. Per the allergic husband’s request.

Finally! I have replaced the card reader! Lets see if I can get some of this to work. First, the before pic of me.
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Scary huh? Well, that is going to be the old me. I will be working very hard to make a lot of that me disappear! I start exercising this week.
Organizing and improving my home has been ongoing and I am really enjoying it. I found this on pinterest…
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After getting some family pictures taken and finding all the right stuff, this is what I ended up with.
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THIS WALL IS NOT PINK! I have no idea why it would look like it in the pic….There are NO pink walls in my house. It’s a light tan. I am repainting this spring!

Over the weekend, I cleaned scrubbed the kitchen and decided on a paint color for the main part of the house. Spring project of course. My next project is pinterest inspired as well. Here’s a preview.
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I have a lot of things I want to do, but I keep reminding myself that it’s one step at a time. With my sisters help I am nearly caught up on all the business paperwork and that takes the majority of my time. Mechanic man and I have come up with some exciting new products for the business too. I will post once I get the first prototypes online.

Oh, and hormonal son #1 managed to pull his F in math up to a B! I knew he could do it. Love seeing that look in his eyes of self accomplishment. I am a very proud momma! Lets hope he keeps his grades up now that he’s ungrounded.

Trudging along with all my resolutions, how are yours hanging in there?

You have good days, you have bad days. Sometimes, you have good weeks, and you have bad weeks. Crazy part is, it’s been unusually good.

The hormonal 13 year old has had a steady improvement on his grades once we put our parental feet down, my sister has been a huge help with the business paperwork, and I am making progress in the house. But with all of this good news, why do I feel like I should be waving the white flag?

Probably because after catching and releasing the bug that went around over New Years, I have been non stop at trying to keep up with my resolutions, make a positive change in my life for once. And it’s a LOT of hard work. Which stands to reason why so many resolutions get tossed aside in February and March.

As much as I would like to waive the white flag, becuase I still can’t find that SD card reader to add pics to this blog, or because I am exhausted, and staying that way to try and keep up, I won’t. I have given up on the card reader, I will replace it on my next trip to Walmart. Which means I will find it within 24 hours of replacing it, and I will then have 2. And I am okay with that.

My friend and follower sobomama.wordpress.com nominated me for the Very Inspiring/Lovely Blogger Award.
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So a big thank you to her! Check out her site by the way, full of tons of money saving and organizing tips!

So according to the rules I have to tell you 7 thing about me:

1. I only watched soap operas because it meant an hour and a half when the boys would leave me alone.
2. I HATE spiders!
3. I LOVE to read but never have the time
4. I love to garden, but I don’t like vegetables
5. When I was 4, I wanted to be a stripper
6. I started dating my husband when I was 15. We’ve been together ever since
7. Unlike most women, I’m not fond of chocolate or shopping

My nominees are:

1. http://sugardishme.com
2. http://victoriablt.wordpress.com
3. http://sturner2.wordpress.com
4. http://domesticdivamd.wordpress.com
5. http://texanaskitchen.wordpress.com
6. http://TammyeHoney.wordpress.com
7. http://chrismartinwrites.wordpress.com
8. http://thebettermanprojects.wordpress.com
9. http://malouprestado.com
10. http://ladyromp.wordpress.com

Here’s hoping our words make a difference to someones life!

Last night while the family was quiet, I logged on to the computer and pulled up the parent portal for hormonal son #1 to check on his progress.

RECAP: He is grounded from everything for 2 full weeks due to an F in his math class. The problems name is Sarah. Although I am sure she is absolutely adorable, staring at her or catching her attention will not teach him math! He will be able to gain 1 item back at the end of the 2 weeks for every letter grade he is able to go up.

Much to my delight, I found that not only did he get a B on the math test he took last week, he also got a B on his quiz! Funny how that works? I thought he wasn’t “getting it”?!? His grade is currently 79% just shy of a B! I am super proud of him! He is down to 3 missing assignments from 3 of his other classes and he completed those last night.

I told him that if he brought his grade up to an A that he could have everything back all at once. Mechanic Man would like to return it all if he gets to a B, but I reminded him that we want him to understand that it takes hard work and determination to get what you want, so he returned to my side.

Needless to say, the quiet time was over while a full blown celebration of the grade filled the house. To see the joy on his face, and that sparkle in his eyes, you know the look, the “I did it!!!” look, was the most wonderful thing in the world to see! And yes, I cried.

So this year I have made resolutions, like so many others. But I plan on being accountable for all of them.  This blog is going to be my accountablility.

Last year was the first year I have ever completed a resolution.  Really, this was out of pure determination that I was able to do even that.  That resolution was to de-clutter my home. I finished that on December 30th after 6 days of steady de-cluttering, before and after Christmas.  It was very stressful, but I was very proud of myself.

So here are this years resolutions. Some are for fun and some are just necessity.

1. Lose 40 lbs – This is heafty goal I know.  Family history, current issues and my personal need to be happy with the reflection in my mirror are feeding the goal.

2. Spend more time with my boys – This one, well, it’s both a want and a necessity.  See, my oldest is 13 and my youngest is 9.  Right now, they still want to hang out some with dear old mom, but I know that it is nearing its end, and I want to claim as much time as I can with them.  It feels like the last 13 years have just slipped by.

3. Eat at home more – This one goes with number 1 in a way.  It also is for the simple reason that I hate the way eating out makes me feel.  Just yucky!

4. Keep up on the business paperwork – My husband and I started a business 2 years ago and I am the entire office staff.  I also work full time outside of the home, so I tend to be behind on all the office duties.  This year I intend to keep up on it with diligence and determination!

5. Start an eBay store – This is for the business.  I need to get some of the inventory we aquired this year up for sale and out the door!

6. Quit smoking – Again, family history and current issues are really fueling this resolution.  I’ve decided that this blog will be the only place I will talk about this resolution, when I quit, I will do it quietly.  Not so I am not accountable, but so I am only accountable to the only person that matters, me.

7. Garden – This is just for me.  I love love love to garden.  Bringing myself closer to nature lights something deep within me and I, well, it relaxes me.  Brings me closer to my parents in a way.  Heals the heart where the wounds are too deep.

8.  Continue Organizing my home – I want to keep up on the one and only resolution I was able to complete.  And I would like to extend the reach of that organization outside as well.  I also believe that although I eliminated a ton of clutter from my home, there is more that I could part with.

9.  LESS OTHER PEOPLES DRAMA! – If you need an ear while you unload, I’m there for ya.  But if you want a place to drop off your drama and pick it up later, after I’ve fixed elimated it for you.  Well, you’ve stopped at the wrong house!

Ok, so I realize that there are a lot of items on this list.  In a way though, they go hand in hand.  Last resolution, I will post at least once a week on my progress.  I will post pics when I can, and links to the places that I get tips from.  If I screw up, you’ll be the first to know, and if I succeed, you will be the first to know.

Next week…..

You can look forward to a before pic of me for resolution #1 (for accountability). Tasteful of course (no pics of me in my underware!).  I will even post my weight!  Scary!

I will be working on all of the resolutions all of the time, so there will be updates on everything every week!  I would love to hear any tips you all might have that could help, and I would love to hear about your resolutions and thier success as well!

Here’s to keeping those resolutions! Bring it on 2013!